I’m experiencing some unexpected downtime at work so here’s an update.
Since my last post, I’m still just as enthusiastic about my job. I’m starting to get a better idea about my responsibilities, even if I’m still being treated like an intern. (Which I actually appreciate, rather than “HEY DO ALL THIS STUFF YOU DON’T KNOW HOW TO DO!”) I’m finally getting organized and am still trying to prove myself. I will be awesome if it kills me, dammit!
I like the girls that I work with even though we’re very different. They invited me out for drinks yesterday which is a totally new concept for me. I turned down their invitation because I was eager to get home but it was nice of them to invite me. It’s just a very different scene for me – unless you count Kayla’s sorority event Sophmore year of college, I don’t think I’ve ever even BEEN to a bar. I know I’m not usually socially awkward but the thought of going to bars and clubs is just totally forgein to me and I can’t help but feel really naive. What would I even drink? I don’t even know the options! I don’t usually overthink my actions this much but I feel like going out with a group and ordering a pepsi kind of ruins the mood. It’s not peer-pressure as much as it’s going through the motions needed to create a particular bonding experience. I’ll probably just order something, hope I like it, and fake it if I don’t. Is it bad that I would rather go home and sew? I think I skipped being a young adult and jumped straight to being a nerdy old lady.
Speaking of the girls that I work with, I share a cubicle with a girl named Lauren and, becuase we have the same job title, we work on similar programs so we interact a lot. I mean….okay. Don’t get me wrong, she’s REALLY nice and bubbly and pretty but some of the things she says are just…not smart. For example, the other day, I noticed that in our little company of 20 people, 6 of the men are named Mark or Matt and I was having a hard time keeping their names straight. This conversation followed:
Kathryn: Okay from now on, the company isn’t allowed to hire any more men named Matt or Mark.
Lauren: They aren’t?!
Kathryn: Sorry, what?
Lauren: They aren’t allowed to hire men named Matt or Mark??
Kathryn: Oh no…I was just making a joke.
So…yeah. She doesn’t really get humor (not just MY humor but all humor) and to top it off, she also hasn’t had much office experience so I find myself teaching her a lot. Today I taught her how to print screen…
I’m not annoyed with her and like her as a person but I just think it’s sad that someone like her could get a job when so many of my more-qualified friends are unemployed. Shows that being friends with the vice president of a company definitely counts for something.
Anyway, other than work, I’ve been doing the usual: working out and working on cosplay. I’m moving way too slowly on my Miaka costume and really need to step it up if I want to finish it for Sakuracon. I’m just so tired when I get home that it’s hard to muster up the energy to sit down and work. Maybe if I didn’t work out from 10:30-11:30PM I wouldn’t be so tired throughout the day….but then again, if I worked out any earlier, I couldn’t watch Conan. Speaking of which, I’m thinking about joining a gym in the spring. There’s a big gym about 10 minutes away from Al’s place that sounds pretty great. Also, it’s the gym that Heidi and Lauren use so if I ever wanted to go to a class with them, I could go for free. I’m gonna do a free trial in the next couple weeks with Al and if he likes it, maybe I can get him to join too.
On the subject of Al, our relationship has been doing a lot better lately. He hasn’t really had a chance to prove whether or not he’s taken control of his jealously issues but, since I stopped talking to Joe, they’re at least better on a daily basis. I still miss talking to Joe very much but I’m at least happy to see that this decision wasn’t in vain and Al and I are making progress. I feel like I’m awarding more of my trust to him and I’m able to be more honest. I’m still paranoid that we’re going to fall apart at any moment but the only thing that can fix that is time. We’re still not perfect but I’m happy – so far so good.
I think I’m going home to visit my family tomorrow. I don’t know if my mom particularly approves of me spending so much time at Al’s but she’s not argumentative about it – I think she just misses me and doesn’t want me to get into trouble. Plus I think my mom’s computer is broken and has been broken for a couple of weeks now so at the very least, I should go home just to let my brother use my laptop. I can’t imagine going weeks without a computer.
Randomly, I noticed that my background matches the wall of my cubicle. Destiny much?
Bye for now.
