A lot has happened since my last post, which is surprising since my last public post was only 2 weeks ago. I’ll break it down into 2 categories:
THE GOOD
[+] I got the job at PSP!! I am officially a Client Service Account Coordinator. I’m am making a salary, have benefits, and have 18 personal days per year! I start on January 4th and, while I’m excited, I’m also a little sad to say goodbye to my free time. It’s also crazy to think that I won’t have Spring Break or summer vacation anymore…
[+] Al came back from China.
[+] I’ve been working 9-5 at SG&F nearly everyday. It’s been a mostly positive experience in the sense that I’m getting a paycheck and don’t have to search for a temporary job but some days are harder than others. I think the attorneys here forget that I don’t have any legal experience and, because of that, I’m often given projects that require me to ask 20 questions before I can even get started. I’m sure it’s annoying but Al’s dad is really nice and I think he just appreciates the help. Tomorrow is supposed to be my last day but I keep pulling a George Bailey and sticking around to help, despite my best intentions to leave.
[+] I saw Avatar with my mom, brother, and Al. It was one of those movies that’s 100% worth the $10 you pay to see it in theatres. The visuals were absolutely gorgeous and the 3D was really cool – I highly recommend it.
[+] I got to spend some time with Henry and Kayla.
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THE BAD
[-] Megan went back to TX and Tara moved back to MN.
[-] Joe and I are no longer speaking. There is a really long story behind this (longer than anyone realizes) but essentially, I was caught in a lie involving Joe which caused Al’s hatred of Joe to finally topple over the edge. Al told me that he would break up with me unless I severed ties with Joe so I did. I say this very simply but it was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. In the past, people have encouraged me to separate myself from Joe with the explanation that he’s an ex-boyfriend and it’s natural to sever ties after a breakup. What people don’t understand is that yes he’s an ex-boyfriend but he’s also the best friend that I’ve ever had. Naturally, it was (and still is) extremely difficult.
I pray that I’m making right decision. Staying with Al feels right but I know we have a long way to go to preserve our relationship. We have all of the materials we need to build something incredible but right now we’re missing the trust and you can’t get far without that. I have sacrificed my best friend in the hopes that his absence will be the key to building that trust. All I can do now is mourn my loss, take a deep breath, cross my fingers and give it my all.
